Feel like wanna give up

Lizi...she feel tired...tried to hold on...wanna give up...
Pressure...tension...exam...mark...helpless...
...

想 • 她

想 · 她

我总是在想她.
分针的转动,我不在乎.
思念的侵袭,我不在乎.
沉思的呆样,我不在乎.
我只在乎自己的欲望,想她的欲望.

我总是在想她.
望着可乐的时候,我的思念仿佛是冰冷的可乐罐外,一颗颗属于眷念的水珠.
握着铅笔的时候,我的笔迹好像是灰色的海鸥,在白色的天空中自由地飞翔.
看着诗句的时候,我的内心只像急流的洪水撞击着礁石,并激起美丽的浪花.
走在街上的时候,我的脚步声像是街边卖艺的曲子,旋绕在寂寞路人的耳际.

我总是在想她.
我的眼光常常飘浮不定,在人潮中寻找着她的踪影.
因为她总是若隐若现的,牵动了我心.
我的思绪有时理了还乱,在脑海里储存着她的回忆.
因为她总是若即若离的,触动了我心.

我总是在想她.
我喜欢你,是吗?
我不停地,反复地寻找答案.
那天,我找到了答案,一个让我碎心的答案.
这天,我不再想她.

Start from bottom

是一条成长的路
但我知道 脚下踏着的
移动的双脚 带了些沉重
一步 两步 三步
我开始跨步了
让我有了说话的能力
她的存在

安静地躲在黑暗中
没有文字 没有肢体语言
因为它总是寂静无声
我捉摸不到自己的影子
如果没有她

泪与雨

在夜深的尽头 残月
昏暗路灯 鹅黄色照下
炽热着皮肤层下
孤身只影地飘泊
无视着无谓的轻薄挑逗
快步离开那无礼数地带
豆大的雨水从夜空落下
频密地打落在瘦弱身子
泪水的咸 雨水的酸
渗入那尚未痊愈的心
刺痛了我 掀起低潮
黑影站在街头撑着伞
模糊的视觉是镜片
熟悉而宽厚是肩膀
紧紧地把我拥进怀里
修长的手指
轻轻地托着下巴
慢慢地抬起头来
四目交接 心在跳动深深吻了唇

忘

我装着看不见
你为我流下的眼泪
我装着不在乎
心被触痛的苦楚

很想用手拭去你脸颊的泪水
但我选择了放弃
很想用宽大的手臂
紧紧地拥抱着你
让瘦弱的你在我怀里倾诉
但放弃选择了我

尝试着忘了你的存在
也许是不可能的任务 因为
当我凝望着我的手掌
却隐约地瞧见
你那写满文字的手心
但我触摸着我的左肩
却犹记与你擦肩而过的一幕
像陈旧的带子
一遍再一遍地上演

忘了你 也许
因为世上没有不可能发生的事情
只是选择性的发生或不发生

是的 我不要忘了你

24 march 2008

原来我会不自觉地想起你…
看着简讯时,嘴角会偷偷上扬.
望着雨滴时,冷冷的心温暖了.
不知不觉…你的影子跑出来
夺走了我的思绪 引起思念

可笑的是
当我自觉的时候,
我还是 依然地想着你…

i'm thinking of you

感觉到心的起伏不定
用力地压抑着那不听话的思念
它反抗 喘息…再反抗
我装聋装哑的 看左看右的
有力的拇指狠狠地压下 大口地喘气
逃走了 心的落地窗有了裂痕
微小的触碰有阵刺痛的伤感
没有了思念的灌溉 心泛黄了枯竭了
虚弱的丝丝气息 吐出
我… 想你…

落叶

落叶

泛黄的叶子 落下
落叶的舍弃是伤感
微风的催促使了我向前
淡淡余香溶入嗅觉
仰望着茂密的树叶
摹绘着点滴 若隐若现
思念着头绪 若即若离
捉摸不清 最原始的心
眼里尽是丝丝的愁
泪滴滑落脸颊 不拭
压抑着已久的思量 不果
温热的手轻放在肩
有节奏似的轻拍着
湿红红的眼睛 转动
修长的影子入目 欲哭
微扬的嘴角 牵动了心

落叶归土 滋养了大地
友情归缘 滋润了我心

Miss you

My ex-classmates and my friend ---Ling in USM.They seem very enjoy their university's life.Hope to see them soon...and tmc.

二十岁的我们

二十岁的我们

八月十九日的那一天，我度过了我二十岁的生日。蛋糕的余温替我那冰冷的心加热、那短短的祝福片段让我的眼睛发红，还有那些挤爆信箱的简讯，这一切都让我感动欲哭。这一刻，我深深地感受到有朋友真好。这不是我想要说的重点，我所要带出来的是“二十岁”这东西。
二十岁的到来意味着什么？自由吗？还是肩上多了一份责任？现在我们的身份不再是中学生或是温室里的小花小草，而是负着重任的大专生。我们背着纳税人的期待，成为国家未来的栋梁和推动国家未来经济的动力。肩上担着父母亲的期望，我们走进了这间大学，开始了我们那陌生的大学生涯。对父母亲而言，我们就像是从一颗小小的种子慢慢地发芽、慢慢地长出叶子、慢慢地拥有自己那坚硬的树杆和茂密的树叶，然后开花结果。他们在我们成长的过程中的那一份爱心、关心、细心、耐心和用心，都是让我们茁壮成长的肥料。他们不在乎那炽热的阳光和汗流侠背后的不适，眼里只想着我们的现在与未来。我们开始结果了，而他们的嘴角一直上扬着。自己的未来也是我们责任之一。因为今天所做的一切，就决定了我们十年后的身价。
没有了这些责任，我们还剩下什么？

梨子

lizi vs tmc

是错觉吗？还是内心深处的感觉？
我不知道，也不去猜测
只是
那熟悉的感觉让我心有了温度
那扬起的嘴角让我心有了快乐的原料
系着思念的心总感沉重且饱满的
相遇的那一刻 心被触动了
感觉一下子溢了出来 满满的
将满满的感觉化为诗句
让文字把思念说出口

lizi's thinking of her (2)

一、
我握着那断了的线
茫然地望着灰白的天空
舍不得放手总让心有点难过

二、
展开浅青色的贺卡
仔细地寻找字与字之间隐藏的思绪
平凡的祝福语
没有一点点思念
我失落了 不过
至少我有你的友情

三、
繁重的课业并没有牵绊我思念的脚步
那一瞬间的心悸
依然持续着
也许不久的将来会慢慢淡去
但是此刻 请允许我想你

四、
距离远了
有点空虚有点无助
我想你吗？
好像有点好像很多
一点一点地蓄着
很多很多地堆积着
放进信封
写下你心的地址
我犹豫了 然后。。。
然后就没有然后了

梨子

lizi's thinking of her (1)

沉默中 感觉微弱的挣扎
挣扎着是否要跟随跳动的心
抑或 克制那欲溢的感觉
寂静中 看着远去的背影
仿佛是脱手而飞的幸福
还是 解开了思念的绳索

那一跨步的距离
那伸手可及的距离
依然存在着
如果还有拉近距离的机会，你会给我吗？

梨子

Fail my physics test

Just 40 out of 100...
lizi can predict the mark because she knew she didn't do well in that test...
But lizi will continue gambateh...really need to work hard...
Yesterday lizi went to the interview for the social service,nation level.Have to present yourself and tell your view on some moral value...quite challenging about the tasks that they gave to lizi...
I don't think lizi performed well in the interview because she didn't prepare very detail...
However lizi learnt a lot from them.Really appreciated their willingness to teach lizi...
This morning lizi went to visit the farm which located opposite lizi's college.With the guide of lizi's agriculture lecture,lizi and her friends went around the farm.There are a lot of plants,crops and fish...oil palm,melon,water melon,padi,dragon fruit...
After that,lizi went to physics class...and received a message from the senior of social service.She told lizi:Congratulation,you're now selected to become one of the social workers.This responsibility is big and hope you manage to do well in it.Don't regret about it.Thanks.
The feeling was like 'shock' because lizi thought that she didn't perform well along the interview.
But she will try her best to do it...Go go gambateh!!!

Have to retake the physics test

Yesterday the coordinator said we have to retake the test as the first test was very very bad until 80% of the class didn't pass the test.The most dislike subject in lizi's life is physics...very hate it!Unfortunately,lizi has to take it as it's compulsory to those who didn't take physics in STPM or matriculation.Hope lizi can pass the other two tests in this coming month.
Miss family...lizi's missing her family very much...hope to see them in healthly condition.
Recently,lizi wrote somethings in her note book,handphone...lizi will post it as soon as possible...because got no chinese star or others to write them out.

Never ask things to be easier,always ask yourself to be better.
Therefore,go go gambateh!!!

Tired

Just received the KENEGERAAN test result...Not really satisfied about the result although lizi got an A in this subject.A few days ago,lizi felt tired and wanted to let go...Too bad,isn't it?Just like tired to rush for the bus,keep busy doing nothing...It's just like meaningless,not helping lizi in her future...However,lizi have to be tough until reach her dream,right?
Therefore,you have no choice but to work hard,keep yourself busy with study and activities...
To keep growing value within yourself...Go go gambateh!!!

Tired

Today lizi got the kenegeraan test's mark - 86.It should be a beautiful thing as the grade is A.
It just that compare with others,our mood will become down...Lizi's friend got 97.33,the highest mark in the class.It's undeniable that she is good enough to score this mark...but lizi felt disappointed about the result as lizi thought that she could get more mark.
But now,lizi thinks properly,deeply...she suppose to happy because she was getting A in this subject.Right! Hahaha...maybe lizi can get four flat in this semester.
Ok,go go gambateh!

And the most important thing is enjoy the study.
Because of this reason,you will get the result that you wish to get...

Lizi needs to go go gambetah

Seniors said that if we want to change course,we have to score 4 flat
Therefore,lizi has to work harder,ok?Must no problem 1,because lizi has confident to achieve her dream.In order to get the course that lizi wants -psychology,lizi,please go go gambateh!
Yesterday received tha chemistry test's result,lizi got 86,that is A.
Congratulation,it was a good start.Go Go Gambateh!Don't just relax,please.As this is the last chance to work hard for your dream -clinical psychologist.

If you think you can,you CAN.
If you can dream it,you CAN DO IT.

Keep chasing for you dream.Keep busying with the hard work.Surely you can achieve it.
Lastly,go go gambateh!

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speakless...

First thought of lizi

Really miss my family...