天气异常的炎热。热气似乎把皮肤的毛孔给闷着，无法呼吸。
想说跑跑步，把汗水逼出或许身体会凉快些。
今天和平常不一样，同样的路线，相反的方向，我开始跨步。
反了方向，沿途的一草一木仿佛换了样似的，感觉完全不一样。
这是否也意味着同样的一件事在不同的角度切入，就可以看见不同的一面？雪糕，对小孩子而言是一种奢侈的美食、一种宁可努力完成一件事而争取的奖赏；它，对我而言却是一种可以发胖的垃圾食物。偏执于某一方而拒绝去看去听不一样的东西，也就会因此而失去重新认识这世界的机会。就像一直以来的自己都在跑同一个方向的路线，安于熟悉的风景、熟悉的上坡下坡，却忘了偶尔也要换换方向、换换心情。
一步步地跑着，一口口地呼吸。
头脑暂时得以放空，屏除烦乱的杂念，只在这一刻，专心地一呼一吸，脚步一前一后地向前。
靠近黄昏的太阳依旧红热。
汗流了，理了思绪，然后离开。
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Friday, October 1, 2010
亲爱的，你还好吗？
亲爱的，有多久没有好好地和你说说话了？
亲爱的，你还好吗？
生活总是充斥着盲目的忙碌，跟随属于别人的脚步，高攀属于别人的成长。
梨子，你做这个！
梨子，这星期三考试啊！记得读书啊！
梨子，报告明天要交了，你还没有做完吗？
梨子，你不知道要填表格吗？
梨子，为什么你的收讯台频率慢别人很多拍的？
反复地提醒着、一遍又一遍地催促着，友人仿佛已经习惯活在自己世界的我。
梨子啊，她做事慢慢的、很喜欢发呆、很安静、都不说话的...她就是这样的咯！
知错却不改过，过于安分地守在自己的安全地带。
与世隔离的框框里面，我很安静。
不想动。懒得动。
不想离开惯性的依赖，依赖安然的现状。
害怕踏出一步后摔得一身伤。
害怕满满希望换来失望的心。
害怕别人看不起自己的眼神。
因为害怕失败，所以站在这里就好。
以为这样一直欺骗自己心会好过些，原来不是的。
这颗心装满一堆堆的难过，小心翼翼不让逞强的防卫决堤。
繁琐的人事物折了心，不顺心的挫败沉了心，小小的，却让心重重受打击。
从半满的自信，慢慢地下滑到质疑自己的能力、承担力。
茫然地随波逐流的结果只剩下虚空的躯壳？
梨子只有这样的能耐而已？
一直这样质问自己、责怪自己。
然后呢？
然后就没有然后了。
亲爱的，你还好吗？
生活总是充斥着盲目的忙碌，跟随属于别人的脚步，高攀属于别人的成长。
梨子，你做这个！
梨子，这星期三考试啊！记得读书啊！
梨子，报告明天要交了，你还没有做完吗？
梨子，你不知道要填表格吗？
梨子，为什么你的收讯台频率慢别人很多拍的？
反复地提醒着、一遍又一遍地催促着，友人仿佛已经习惯活在自己世界的我。
梨子啊，她做事慢慢的、很喜欢发呆、很安静、都不说话的...她就是这样的咯！
知错却不改过，过于安分地守在自己的安全地带。
与世隔离的框框里面，我很安静。
不想动。懒得动。
不想离开惯性的依赖，依赖安然的现状。
害怕踏出一步后摔得一身伤。
害怕满满希望换来失望的心。
害怕别人看不起自己的眼神。
因为害怕失败，所以站在这里就好。
以为这样一直欺骗自己心会好过些，原来不是的。
这颗心装满一堆堆的难过，小心翼翼不让逞强的防卫决堤。
繁琐的人事物折了心，不顺心的挫败沉了心，小小的，却让心重重受打击。
从半满的自信，慢慢地下滑到质疑自己的能力、承担力。
茫然地随波逐流的结果只剩下虚空的躯壳？
梨子只有这样的能耐而已？
一直这样质问自己、责怪自己。
然后呢？
然后就没有然后了。
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Feel like wanna give up
Lizi...she feel tired...tried to hold on...wanna give up...
Pressure...tension...exam...mark...helpless...
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Pressure...tension...exam...mark...helpless...
...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Fail my physics test
Just 40 out of 100...
lizi can predict the mark because she knew she didn't do well in that test...
But lizi will continue gambateh...really need to work hard...
Yesterday lizi went to the interview for the social service,nation level.Have to present yourself and tell your view on some moral value...quite challenging about the tasks that they gave to lizi...
I don't think lizi performed well in the interview because she didn't prepare very detail...
However lizi learnt a lot from them.Really appreciated their willingness to teach lizi...
This morning lizi went to visit the farm which located opposite lizi's college.With the guide of lizi's agriculture lecture,lizi and her friends went around the farm.There are a lot of plants,crops and fish...oil palm,melon,water melon,padi,dragon fruit...
After that,lizi went to physics class...and received a message from the senior of social service.She told lizi:Congratulation,you're now selected to become one of the social workers.This responsibility is big and hope you manage to do well in it.Don't regret about it.Thanks.
The feeling was like 'shock' because lizi thought that she didn't perform well along the interview.
But she will try her best to do it...Go go gambateh!!!
lizi can predict the mark because she knew she didn't do well in that test...
But lizi will continue gambateh...really need to work hard...
Yesterday lizi went to the interview for the social service,nation level.Have to present yourself and tell your view on some moral value...quite challenging about the tasks that they gave to lizi...
I don't think lizi performed well in the interview because she didn't prepare very detail...
However lizi learnt a lot from them.Really appreciated their willingness to teach lizi...
This morning lizi went to visit the farm which located opposite lizi's college.With the guide of lizi's agriculture lecture,lizi and her friends went around the farm.There are a lot of plants,crops and fish...oil palm,melon,water melon,padi,dragon fruit...
After that,lizi went to physics class...and received a message from the senior of social service.She told lizi:Congratulation,you're now selected to become one of the social workers.This responsibility is big and hope you manage to do well in it.Don't regret about it.Thanks.
The feeling was like 'shock' because lizi thought that she didn't perform well along the interview.
But she will try her best to do it...Go go gambateh!!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Have to retake the physics test
Yesterday the coordinator said we have to retake the test as the first test was very very bad until 80% of the class didn't pass the test.The most dislike subject in lizi's life is physics...very hate it!Unfortunately,lizi has to take it as it's compulsory to those who didn't take physics in STPM or matriculation.Hope lizi can pass the other two tests in this coming month.
Miss family...lizi's missing her family very much...hope to see them in healthly condition.
Recently,lizi wrote somethings in her note book,handphone...lizi will post it as soon as possible...because got no chinese star or others to write them out.
Never ask things to be easier,always ask yourself to be better.
Therefore,go go gambateh!!!
Miss family...lizi's missing her family very much...hope to see them in healthly condition.
Recently,lizi wrote somethings in her note book,handphone...lizi will post it as soon as possible...because got no chinese star or others to write them out.
Never ask things to be easier,always ask yourself to be better.
Therefore,go go gambateh!!!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Tired
Just received the KENEGERAAN test result...Not really satisfied about the result although lizi got an A in this subject.A few days ago,lizi felt tired and wanted to let go...Too bad,isn't it?Just like tired to rush for the bus,keep busy doing nothing...It's just like meaningless,not helping lizi in her future...However,lizi have to be tough until reach her dream,right?
Therefore,you have no choice but to work hard,keep yourself busy with study and activities...
To keep growing value within yourself...Go go gambateh!!!
Therefore,you have no choice but to work hard,keep yourself busy with study and activities...
To keep growing value within yourself...Go go gambateh!!!
Tired
Today lizi got the kenegeraan test's mark - 86.It should be a beautiful thing as the grade is A.
It just that compare with others,our mood will become down...Lizi's friend got 97.33,the highest mark in the class.It's undeniable that she is good enough to score this mark...but lizi felt disappointed about the result as lizi thought that she could get more mark.
But now,lizi thinks properly,deeply...she suppose to happy because she was getting A in this subject.Right! Hahaha...maybe lizi can get four flat in this semester.
Ok,go go gambateh!
And the most important thing is enjoy the study.
Because of this reason,you will get the result that you wish to get...
It just that compare with others,our mood will become down...Lizi's friend got 97.33,the highest mark in the class.It's undeniable that she is good enough to score this mark...but lizi felt disappointed about the result as lizi thought that she could get more mark.
But now,lizi thinks properly,deeply...she suppose to happy because she was getting A in this subject.Right! Hahaha...maybe lizi can get four flat in this semester.
Ok,go go gambateh!
And the most important thing is enjoy the study.
Because of this reason,you will get the result that you wish to get...
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Lizi needs to go go gambetah
Seniors said that if we want to change course,we have to score 4 flat
Therefore,lizi has to work harder,ok?Must no problem 1,because lizi has confident to achieve her dream.In order to get the course that lizi wants -psychology,lizi,please go go gambateh!
Yesterday received tha chemistry test's result,lizi got 86,that is A.
Congratulation,it was a good start.Go Go Gambateh!Don't just relax,please.As this is the last chance to work hard for your dream -clinical psychologist.
If you think you can,you CAN.
If you can dream it,you CAN DO IT.
Keep chasing for you dream.Keep busying with the hard work.Surely you can achieve it.
Lastly,go go gambateh!
Therefore,lizi has to work harder,ok?Must no problem 1,because lizi has confident to achieve her dream.In order to get the course that lizi wants -psychology,lizi,please go go gambateh!
Yesterday received tha chemistry test's result,lizi got 86,that is A.
Congratulation,it was a good start.Go Go Gambateh!Don't just relax,please.As this is the last chance to work hard for your dream -clinical psychologist.
If you think you can,you CAN.
If you can dream it,you CAN DO IT.
Keep chasing for you dream.Keep busying with the hard work.Surely you can achieve it.
Lastly,go go gambateh!
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